I will preface with this:
I am so excited for him, it’s an amazing opportunity for him and for us financially, and I’m not upset or wanting him to find a new job.
My husband started his new, incredible job this past week.
It has been an adjustment, to say the least.
My husband’s schedule now is the overnight chef position at his job.
I thought that would mean I’d have him home to help more, knowing he would still need to sleep, but my mind skipped that part when I chose to look at this positively.
I was so looking forward to having him home, being able to work more throughout normal business hours, and him being WAY more present while the kids are home after school.
I’m sure you’re catching on that hasn’t been the case.
In fact, it’s the exact opposite.
Now, instead of having help from sun up until noon, I am now on the clock from sun up to sun down.
Not only that, I’m also now on the clock all night too.
Ya girl is tired!
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I am not meant to be a stay at home mom.
I don’t have the patience, I get triggered easily, and I build resentments that will outlast the freaking pyramids.
I love my children, but I also love to not be around them 24/7.
Come at me. IDGAF.
I will always stand by that fact and your judgements cannot change a fact.
Periodt.
This week I’ve been off from Tuesday until today (office was closed after Monday’s deadline).
So, I’m feeling pretty stay at home mom-ish and it shows.
Change is not something I adapt well to (hello autism, my old friend).
I felt super prepared going into this change though as I had months of preparation for it; the hiring process was lengthy.
I felt super prepared until the change I prepped for was not the change that occurred.
Just so we’re all on the same page, I’ll do a breakdown of the equation:
(Husband’s new job + Kennedy not sleeping + an entire week off of work) x the job change did not yield the results I had concocted in my mind =
MEAN Ashleigh.
I’m not proud of that, but honesty is important.
In summary, this entire week was an absolute shit show.
I can hear you asking:
“So all you’re going to do this week for your weekly gratitude post is complain?!”
No.
I’m going to talk about the solution.
I am so grateful I was off this week!
Yes, it was a disaster.
Yes, I’m exhausted.
Yes, I’m not really emotionally sound (but am I ever?!).
However, having this past week off, I had time to brainstorm and think of solutions to how I can make this work the way my fantasizing mind thought it was going to.
This is what I came up with:
Whitman gets home at 6 AM.
He goes straight to bed.
I get all the kids ready, do breakfast, drop off, and whatever else is on the list that morning.
Spend time with my little man until his nap time at 10:30 AM.
I pickup Kennedy from school at 11:15 AM.
We come home, I get her lunch ready and we wait for her BT to get here at 12 PM.
At noon, I wake up Whitman and then I go to work.
That’s 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep.
That’s significantly more than he was getting when he did the overnight shift with the kids.
In fact, he’s getting some long overdue sleep as he’s been the overnight parent for years now.
Meanwhile, I get 3 hours now (if I’m lucky).
But no one cares about that, I’m the mom. It’s my job.
There you have it.
I got to find the solution to my problem and have the solution benefit all parties involved
Not just my own.
Did you find a solution this week or did you stay stuck?
It’s never too late to get in the solution and remove yourself from the problem.
Unless you’re dead and just now reading this.
Which, I don’t think they have data plans for the afterlife, so…
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